There is some great words of wisdom for you to follow Scarlett _Martin given to you on this forum if you just take the time to absorb it all in without rushing in and doing something foolish like tossing yourself .That doesn`t solve anything and just adds grief to all those you never knew, who loved you.
Believe me, it may sound like a clique , however its true that "time does heal everything" so do that give it time , and use the WT `s tact of using "Theocratic warfare" and use it against them to your advantage .