Posts by bittersweet

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How many out here.....

by tazmaniac in

how many out here know a loved one or know of someone who suffers from depression and it is from being in the borg and never feel you are doing enough.

my ex wife would always lapse into a few month state of depression right after a visit from the c/o and getting pounded on about f/s hours or not enough studies or not enough pioneers yadda yadda yadda.

i know with my ex that the constant fear of armageddon and feeling inadequate was a depression trigger ready to be pulled at any instant.

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My husband gets depressed easily about not doing enough. If he goes to a meeting and they start talking about going out in service more, or studying with your family more, he comes home depressed.I tell him the meetings are supposed to encourage,not discourage.He says they are only telling us what Jehovah wants from us, and that he isn't doing enough for Jehovah. It is distressing because he has such feelings of worthlessness, and these meetings just bring him further down. He will compare himself to brother so and so and say well if he can do it, what's wrong with me.

All I know is,when I was in the org,I had the same kinds of feelings.It wasn't until I was out that I started to like myself.Others didn't notice it, but I was very depressed when I was in. I am so happy that I am out now.

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Last Night's Nightmare

by Robdar in

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friends

i woke up with my heart racing this morning.

i had an awful dream that i had gone home to visit my parents and that everybody in my former cong came bye to say hi.

in my dream, all the men had on suits and all the women had on floral dresses.

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Ok Robyn,

Here's one of my freaky dreams from many years ago.I was about 7 when I had this dream.

We are driving in my moms blue van, the kind of van that has pictures of the ocean and mountains in the windows(can you tell it's the 70's?).We stop at the Kingdom Hall (although in my dream it's not a KH,but a store of some sorts), and my mom gets out and goes in,leaving me,my brother,and my sister alone.After a couple hours of waiting,my mom still hasn't come out.My older sister(10 at the time) decides she's going to drive us home.We yell at her not to because she is too young to know how to drive,but she decides to anyway. Almost as soon as we pull out of the parking lot,the van starts to swerve,and we smash into a guardrail.The van completely folds up like an accordian.and then........ a giant picks up the van and stats playing it like it is an accordian,and we are trapped inside falling all over the place!!! LOL

I have so many more,but that one always cracks me up!

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By the way, it was my birthday yesterday.... April 8th, 1969

by anti-absolutist in

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it's weird that, 11 years after getting df'd,and 8 years after vowing to never go back, i still kind of felt guilty toasting my birthday with my friends.

i am a hell of a lot closer, though, to feeling no shame at all, and a lot of you are to be credited with my freedom......... .

brad

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Happy Birthday Brad! You are exactly 1 month older than me!

I hope your B-day was a great one. I've still yet to celebrate my birthday openly. My last real birthday party was when I was 4, and I can't wait to have one again someday!

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Last Night's Nightmare

by Robdar in

jw
friends

i woke up with my heart racing this morning.

i had an awful dream that i had gone home to visit my parents and that everybody in my former cong came bye to say hi.

in my dream, all the men had on suits and all the women had on floral dresses.

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I'm so glad to see I'm not the only one who has freaky dreams!

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While A Witness, Did You Ever Date A "Worldly Person"?

by minimus in

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how many here ever dated a "worldly" person, while still a jw?

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I had a few worldly boyriends in school. Then ultimately, another witness kid would tell on me, and then it was off into my moms room to go over the "Young People Ask" articles in the AWAKE. UGH!!!

Funny thing is, my worldly boyfriends were so innocent. The only ones I ever fooled around with were the witness boys. Go figure.

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I Don't Want To Kill My Pussy Cat!

by Stephanus in

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yes, the one with the glowing eyes.

he's sick, and we're on our way to the vet's to say goodbye.. i was taking him to the vet's this morning when i posted my withdrawal notice

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I am so sorry.

I had to have our beloved dog put down last month.It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.I am still very sad about it.

Just know you are in my thoughts,and I am very sad that you are losing a member of your family.

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We'd Like to KILL the apostates, but we can't....

by betweenworlds in

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i read this quote at tom's site (thanks tom!

) and then looked it up for myself on the wt cd.

this is truly disturbing and shows their true mindset....this is from the nov. !5th 1952 question from readers.

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WTF?! Is this for real? Gosh, guess we should be lucky we have laws nowadays that don't allow stonings,eh? Sheeesh

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Women raised as JWs: Did the WTS views on women negatively impact you?

by berylblue in

i'd really like to know.. my experience was that women who were raised in the "truth" and married to a good jw brother did not know how to make decisions.

from reading this board, this would, however, appear to be the least of their problems.. what specifically, if any, were the problems associated with always being told you were a second class person and not capable of making decisions?.

rosemarie

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Actually, the WBTS views on women had a positive effect on me, because I learned how wrong they were. I grew up seeing my mother being forced to submit to a tyrannical man (my former step-father), being told time and again by the elders that she wasn't being a submissive enough wife.

My husband of 15 years is still a witness, but he has never tried to hold the headship thing over me.He's knows it wouldn't get him too far (except out the door).I certainly don't need a man to tell me what to do or how to live,which is why I left the whole organization in the first place!

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