I appreciate what you are doing so please take this with a grain of salt. Many on this forum have been hurt in one way or another by the organization. It's too bad because there are some genuinely good people in the organization like yourself, but there are also some real butt brains.
Personally even with all the bad things the org has done and continues to do I still love God. I don't like using the name "Jehovah" though as Jesus never used that name and with a little research you'll see that that's probably not the way the divine name would be pronounced. Love for Him moves me to not use a name that very well could be wrong. Don't know about you but it would be highly disrespectful and unloving to mispronounce a persons name. How much more so with regards our Heavely Father?