Hi B
This whole exJW thing is a huge adjustment for all of us and takes strength to adapt and change. WT has really made a mess of things. Those on this site are unique and outsiders can't comprehend what it takes to come out of a cult. But now we found each other and I am grateful for the support. You seem to be a very genuine and loving person and you may not realize it but reading just this little post has helped me and I just know you will be an asset to others here as they learn to adjust too. I expect many, many JWs to leave WT in the very near future. They are all going to feel that gut punch and need someone to reach out to. I keep reading posts of young ones who feel trapped by WT and need our support to help them cope.
I'm glad you were best friends w/ your Mom. I lost my Mom a few years ago too. But she's still inside my heart and I'm often surprised at how something will trigger a memory of her unconditional love for me (like when I read my grandkids the same stories that she read me as a boy). We will always have that and that comforts me to know. It sounds like your kids will always have that too.
Wishing you well. Dumplin.