So when my mom died in 2007 the main thing that kept me from losing it was that I knew I would see her again in the earthly paradise that I read and sang about in the jw publications. I honestly fully believed in it. We were best friends and it was devastaing to lose her.
Upon finding out ttat, I no longer believe in the earthly paradise. It really felt like a gut punch at first when I realized I would not see her again. I was so angry that I even believed such nonsense. Anyway, I'm at peace now with her death and Im just glad she is not in pain anymore. Obviously I would rather her be alive, but Im learning to adjust to the fact I won't see her again. It still sucks though.