You know how it says in the bible , pray for anything in JESUS name. Well I prayed always for other people,asking JEHOVAH for friends that need help. Maybe they were sick or needed a new car because they lived far away from the hall. maybe sister humble's husband just lost his job ect.
I NEVER PRAYED FOR ANYTHING FOR MYSELF, except maybe to try to use the fruitage of the spirit more. I guess I never thought I was worthy and didn't want to ask unless it was really really important. Kind of like saving your get out of jail free card. LOL
Than my husband of 30 years wanted to not be married anymore. No fault of mine. He just wanted to try something new. (woman) I never prayed so hard and so long for him to change his mind. Nope, no answer for me. There is no God. Or he hates me. From a young age I pretty much knew I would die in the big A. Going done the rabbit hole isn't so bad. I just want the truth no matter where it leads me. Yep I would take the red pill.
Yes I.m still a good and loving person ! Personally I believe there is no God. I don't have to live with fear and guilt anymore. Free, I'm free at last . Free to learn, free to read, free to talk . I't GREAT! Oh and I'm free to say good luck Huxsley I hope you find what you'er looking for. Read" the History of God :by Karen Armstrong.There is a good video on you tube called the history of God 2.5 atheism a history of god (A) It is 15 minutes based on Karen Armstrong's book. I think the guy that does the video may have been a JW. He has a great voice. Must have learned it in the Kingdom Hall if he was lol.