I had a childhood filled with sleepless nights about the tribulation and even a fear that my kind loving non JW Father would turn against us and turn us in, during the tribulation. They said from the platform that this would happen and that our own family would deliver us up to the authorities. My Sisters used to bawl during the meetings and cry for poor Dad who was at home alone during meeting nights while his four children were being turned against him.
I used to fear that someone would get ahold my 2 little sisters and torture them until I renounced my faith in Jehovah. They used to dwell on this stuff in the meetings and I was certain that it would happen to me. I felt the weight of the whole world on my shoulders . I knew that if they threatened to hurt my sisters I could never be strong enough not to give in even though they promised that once you gave in, they'd kill you and your family anyway.
For anyone who was too young to remember that time leading up to 1975, the level of cultishness and outright fanatcism that was happenig is hard to even imagine. When you look at the watered down version of what it takes to be a JW today one can't help but conclude that it's not even the same religion that we were baptized into. As far as I'm concerned, by baptisim is null and void and they rubbed the sparkle of my childhood with their crazy lies. I can't help but think that if there really is a God, they will be held responsible for the damage they've caused.