BLACK WOLF- Welcome to the board here ! Nice to hear from you, you are among friends who understand. Do you have any non-JW relatives or close friends with nice, caring parents who understand your situation who might give you emotional support ? It would be good to surround yourself with those authentic, truly caring people as much as possible.
I realize at age 15 you are still living in your parents home- but it's never too early to plan on your future. As some mentioned start saving your money, get a part time job if you are able in your time off from school and plan on a college education. If you are getting assistance with your anorexia problem that's a good thing, keep getting help there either physically from a doctor or counseling to assist you. And keep listening to music my friend ! Music is a healer , I play music and I listen to it ! It's helped me through some hard times indeed. Just remember we are all here for you as a support, O.K. ? Hang in there, take care, Peace out, Mr. Flipper