Welcome, sledracer.
Sorry that you experience loneliness. I hope you stay with this forum.
Would be good to know current information on the nefarious (really - no exaggeration) ways of the Watchtower, but mainly there is a community of really good people here.
We have made some wonderful friends here - honest and kind, interesting and fun to hang out with. Every summer we meet at Lake Tahoe - all are welcome. There are other meetups just about everywhere.
I have seen a big difference in the quality of people who are in and out of the cult.
Mrs. Flipper