Posts by neverendingjourney

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Why do I bother to wake up in the morning?

by punkofnice in

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i'm not suicidal just fed up.. i did think of suicide (briefly), but as there is no painless way and it's not something i would willingly do just in case things would have been better the day after.

i do have a slight grain of hope.. money problems.....problems at home (that's another matter with a son up court for something he is adamant he didn't do.

first offence but the pigs police and the cps have got charges made.

neverendingjourney

This might come across as rather corny, but there's a lyric in one of Tupac's rap songs that goes as follows:

I once contemplated suicide, but when I held that 9 all I could see was my momma's eyes.

It was a line I never gave a second thought to until I realized "the truth" wasn't the truth. I was borderline suicidal at that point. I never took steps to carry it out, but I didn't want to live anymore. Dying in my sleep would have been a welcome relief.

But during those dark times when I contemplatee how I would carry it out, I kept thinking of how much it would affect the loved ones I left behind. It wouldn't be fair to them. It doesn't even occur to you until you're in a really dark place.

Things got better. It took some time, but things improved. I haven't been anywhere near that level of depression in nearly a decade.

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First post after a year or two of lurking on this site-Sorry for the length!

by Pattytheperfect1 in

not sure of the point of telling my story, but just got off the phone with my grandma and i am so angry, stressed and i don't know what else...i guess i just wanted to hear from someone other than my husband that i'm not crazy for my reaction to family interaction.. my condensed story gramatical errors and all :).

father was a born in jw, mother was a convert.

i was born the last of 3 siblings and shortly after my birth in 1981 my parents divorced.

neverendingjourney

Thanks for sharing your story. It takes courage to put it out there, but it's healthier than keeping it bottled up inside. It sounds like you're in a much better place now. Look forward to your future contributions to the board.

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The Ray Franz Movie

by RayPublisher in

been wanting to talk about this for a while... three years ago on this forum my friend cedars brought this up.

let's do it!.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5sykaxxpyos.

neverendingjourney

Maybe Watchtower leadership is smarter than we think.

One of the major reasons the WT has avoided much public scrutiny is because they've carefully disconnected themselves in as much as possible with links to famous members.

The reverse is true with Scientology. They actively court celebrities. The WT has tried as much as possible to distance itself from Michael Jackson and the like.

On the one hand you have high-profile exposes of Scientology and a first-rate movie about their founding (The Master). On the other hand, JWs barely register on the public-consciousness scale even though there are far more witnesses than scientologists in the world.

There simply isn't a big enough market for a Ray Franz biopic. Outside of the current and former JW world, people barely even know JWs exist.

I may be wrong, but I believe the guy who runs JW Facts has said the area of his site with the most hits is the section regarding famous JWs.

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No more WWI veterans... Only 5 people born before Jan 1st 1900

by ILoveTTATT in

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we should keep watching this list: http://www.grg.org/adams/e.htm.

this list shows the list of verified oldest people alive.

technically, articles in the 1960's and even in the 1980's indicated that "this generation" meant people born before 1900.. 5 more people, and we can officially celebrate another failed wt prophecy.. when i was "in" i thought that the wwi veterans had to die.... they're all dead... all of them... not a single person on earth now can tell you what happened when they served in wwi.. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/list_of_last_surviving_world_war_i_veterans_by_country.

neverendingjourney

"Jesus was obviously speaking about those who were old enough to witness with understanding what took place when the 'last days' began. ... Even if we presume that youngsters 15 years of age would be perceptive enough to realize the import of what happened in 1914, it would still make the youngest of 'this generation' nearly 70 years old today." Awake! 1968 Oct 8 p.13

Growing up I used to view WWI vets as a definitive marker. Many of these men went off to war not much older than 15. I had no idea they'd all died off. At one point I was certian there had to be some around when armageddon came.

On the other hand, it'll probably take another 15 to 20 years before everyone born on or before 1914 is dead.

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College Class about JWs .... book suggestions?

by Shepherd Book in

i have the opportunity to take an independent study class through my university this summer.

my advisor, a history professor, suggested i choose jehovah's witnesses as a topic.. we are now trying to formulate a syllabus.

she suggests i write two papers: one on the history of jws, and another on their doctinal approach.. so now my question is...what books/articles/videos do i list on my syllabus as sources i intend to read and use for the papers?.

neverendingjourney

Don't you think there should be more thorough histories of the Witnesses available?

There just isn't a market for it. The only people who are interested in Jehovah's Witnesses are current witnesses, former witnesses, and academics who study religion as a career.

Current witnesses won't read anything not approved by the Watchtower. The former witness market isn't big enough to draw an interest. Ray Franz's book sales were meager when you look at the big picture. It's not like he was able to make a career out of selling books. I've always wondered whether there might be good academic papers (not books, necessarily) that aren't readily available. Stuff like unpublished PhD dissertations or master's theses.

I believe there is a biography on CT Russell, but if I remember correctly it was written by a current Bible Student. It may not be an unbiased source. I've not seen anything on Rutherford. I would love to read a good book on Rutherford.

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College Class about JWs .... book suggestions?

by Shepherd Book in

i have the opportunity to take an independent study class through my university this summer.

my advisor, a history professor, suggested i choose jehovah's witnesses as a topic.. we are now trying to formulate a syllabus.

she suggests i write two papers: one on the history of jws, and another on their doctinal approach.. so now my question is...what books/articles/videos do i list on my syllabus as sources i intend to read and use for the papers?.

neverendingjourney

The closest thing to a history of Jehovah's Witnesses is Apocalypose Delayed by James Penton, who himself is a historian.

Lots of valuable historical information in Crisis of Conscience, although it reads more like a memoir than a history of the movement.

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The Watchtower is under siege from inside and outside

by suavojr in

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that is the reason the watchtower leaders are desperately trying to protect their indoctrinated supporters from being influenced by the critics.. it will get harder and harder to recruit in countries where the internet is easily accessible...the watchtower has no control over the public like it does the indoctrinated jws.

..any interested person can very easily google and learn the truth about the watchtower cult before a 'return visit' can be made.

although most jws would be afraid to go into 'apostate ' sites, more and more are waking up to the truth about the watchtower , their interest triggered by different reasons such as the child abuse cover up, the constantly changing doctrines,the downsizing etc.

neverendingjourney

We don't shun. Don't believe what hateful apostates say. Read jw.org

Slightly off topic story.

About 15 years ago I was out in service with a JW who was originally from Mexico. The person answering the door said he didn't want to hear us out because we didn't believe in the trinity. The JW said something along of the lines of "Who told you that? We do believe in the trinity." He then proceeded to give a legalistic, insincere speech trying to mislead the guy into believing we agreed with him.

After we were done, he said he'd learned that tactic from a CO in Mexico. You have to be creative if you're going to reach out to worldly people, you see. I was pretty livid. He was being so blatantly dishonest. I shared that story with a JW friend of mine and he became incredibly upset to the point where I though he would have gotten violent had the Mexican JW been there with us.

It's amzing to think that in 15 short years that kind of dishonesty would have become standard practice.

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Two Roads... and the one I took made all the difference

by adjusted knowledge in

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introduction to the faith.

ive been a lurker for many years now, and recently created an account to post comments.

someone suggested i should introduce myself and tell my story.

neverendingjourney

It's funny. Sounds like you're a year older than me. I, too, was a self-motivated Watchtower youth.

However, my reaction to the 95 change was different. I remember reading the magazine when it came in the mail and being thoroughly excited. I always felt there were gaps in knowledge that needed to be filled in and here was Jehovah supplying information at the proper time! I wish I had reacted as you did.

I graduated high school a year early. Became a regular pioneer. Shortly thereafter, the doubts became too big a burden to carry and it was a long, slow march out of the religion. I didn't become inactive until I was 26 years old.

Like you, I decided to pursue a career and have done quite well for myself in that aspect of my life.

Best of luck on your journey.

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I NEVER Hear A JW Talk About Never Dying & Living Forever In Paradise Anymore!

by minimus in

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i was raised with this belief, that we would never die and actually make it into the "new system".

mu faithful jw aunt still talked about my mother (her sister) and her walking together into the great tribulation--- and never die at all!

she spoke of that 2 days before she passed away.. i believe most witnesses expect to die and then get resurrected.

neverendingjourney

I recently talked my brother into setting up college savings accounts for his kids. He's either a current or a former elder. I don't know because I don't ask. We haven't talked about "the truth" since I stopped going to meetings 9 years ago.

My brother was always the type of person to disregard long-term planning due to Armageddon's supposed proximity. He's now in his late 30s and realizes on some level that the end ain't coming anytime soon. At worst, he's hedging his bets. Good for him.

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Will firing the DOs be the first step to a new Watchtower?

by Juan Viejo2 in

against my better judgement, i've decided to share the following as a response to guy pierce passing and the announcement of the elimination of district overseers later this year.. late in january (2014) i got an email from one of my contacts (a fader) who served at bethel for several years, but is no longer at wt hq.

he still has a lot of close contacts within the service department and in other departments at patterson and knows people in all of the ny offices.

i kept this email set aside on a flash drive and haven't shared it with anyone - figuring i'd publish an article about it later this year when i had more time to do it right.

neverendingjourney

I think we should resist the urge to take an outsider's perspective on change. We can all easily imagine ourselves as business consultants hired by the Watchtower to come up with a list of initiatives to improve morale and promote growth and retention.

Let's not forget that the men on the GB won a decades-long competition designed to reward the most loyal company men and status quo seekers. They've been selected for their aversion to change. Had they demonstrated the inclination to think creatively or shown independent thinking, they would have been weeded out at the CO or ambitious young Bethelite level.

Edited to add:

You also have the 2/3 supermajority problem. Even if you were successful in convincing a change-resistant GB member, you'd have to get 2/3 of them to agree. That's a tall order.

An exceedingly slow death by bureaucratic inertia remains the most likely outcome, in my opinion.