Glad to read your story, Paul.
I can identify with your revulsion at seeing the Corporation’s “love” take over when the elders deal with a publisher in troubles. If there was anything that initially attracted me it was their emphasis on the “identifying mark” : ..by this all will know you are my disciples, by the love you have among one another.
It ain’t over til it’s over...l hope you outlast your losses and out-love the hate.