I found the OT horrifying but I reasoned that some of the dark parts might be due to human interpretation of events. But the story that damned God, in my mind, was Genesis 22 : All our literature has God demanding Abe asking for the sacrifice of Isaac. I cited the worst offender, MY Book of Bible Stories as particularly offensive.
I spent years slowly piecing together bible research and paleography and how often particular words were used in what context. And more--because it wasn't possible that the pivot point of the bible would be this rotten. My material was corroborated by Bethel. But even though there existed valid reasons to give Jehovah plausible deniability on the charge that he was a lying, sneaking s.o.b., Bethel plastered a lengthy response with such ridiculous verbage that I could only laugh. Because all I had asked for myself was not to have to say "sacrifice your son" since the text didn't use it but used another word.
It is tedious to even bother you with that much. But it was a huge concern to me--I didn't want to serve a monster, won't serve one. The WTBTS did. They could live quite nicely with it--And having been a Catholic earlier on and now dealing with this--my peasant practicality burst out and I just couldn't handle any more bullshit mystery.
I told the brothers that I couldn't believe that the Corp was the FDS. and so I was OUT. I really believed that god should be good.
Then the Epic Thread buried him.
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Your own journey out from capture was gutsy and amazing , MissFit. I am really awed by your resolute clarity and bravery. Also, I enjoy your clarity and generousity in this and other threads. I find it harder to be open about my thoughts when I am still uncertain and searching for a fair evaluation of the world I live in--and the people and events close in and beyond my own door. I do value a truly hospitable nature. thanks for asking me to say my piece.