Hi Zip and welcome,
There are many people your age here. Stick around and learn, do some research here and we will muster up all the love you want. Don't expect perfectionism, it doesn't exist in man as you well know. There are many people here who are still searching, some who are done, some who will later, some who gave up. The most important thing to know is that we all share a common bond.....the watchtower....some are still in and some are not, some never were.....but we try not to jugde...that is not up to us. The love here is unconditional for the most part. Glad to meet you. dj