Hi Sandy:
I was also baptised at 13. I really did believe it was the "truth" - but then again, I had been raised as a JW and my parents never presented any other option.
I'm 37 now and have become a born again Christian. I believe that many JW's have good hearts and really do love God (like people in many different religions) - but they don't really know him - they only know the JW version of him.
For years I thought I had a bad heart because I didn't want to go to meetings, didn't like service, didn't like studying the WT - and I wanted my "wordly" friends.
Now - after shedding the JW version of God and finding out the real truth from the Bible I find that I enjoy studying the bible because I can study what applies to me - and I can ask whatever questions I want. It was never the bible that bored me - it was the reguritated bland "food" the "society" was feeding me. And as for service........well no wonder I didn't want to go - I couldn't stand the stuff myself yet alone "feed" it to some poor free person on the street?! Now that I know the real truth about God I LOVE to share my faith with others - I probably get more hours in now "informal witnessing" about Jesus than I ever did as a JW.
As for the "wordly" friends - they are the ones who stuck by me and are my friends to this day. So according to Jesus' parable of the good samaritan - they were true Neighbors and not the dubs.
Sandy - I think what you lacked was a love for the JW Organization.......which they equate to God himself. Now that you are free from that Org - do some research, not only on the history of the JW's but also some basic research on the doctrines and beliefs of Christianity - and get a different version of the Bible and read it. You might be suprised by what you find.