flip4diz

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  I feel uncomforatable when my children ask about God....

  by flip4diz in

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  i don't know what to say.. for some background: .

  i have been out for 10 years.

  it was the birth of my son, who just turned 11 ... that brought me out.

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  flip4diz

  I don't know what to say.

  For some background:

  I have been out for 10 years. It was the birth of my son, who just turned 11 ... that brought me out. I got involved with a playgroup before he turned one and I remember thinking what good people they were and how I couldn't believe they were sinners and would die just because they were not JW's. I told them several years after we met that on nights when I was scared about my decision I would think of them ... and knowing they were good people who I knew God would not punish helped me through.

  I still have not reached that final hurdle of what the heck to believe. Born into the JW's and never knowing anything else really ruined all religion for me. It's probably only been the last 5 years that I don't get scared when a bad storm rolls over the horizon ... or when I hear of natural disasters catching my breath.

  I'm wondering how much longer it's going to take me to even accept God in any way shape or form. I don't know what to believe. Evolution? Creation? Divine Evolution?

  So my kids ask about God, Death ... etc. I don't know what to say because I no longer believe anything.

  Flip
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  Hello there

  by flip4diz in

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  hey there from maryland.

  have not been on this site for a while.

  it still amazes me how freakin' messed up i am from being brought up in the borg.

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  If I ever do get this pic to work it may scare someone.

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  Hello there

  by flip4diz in

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  hey there from maryland.

  have not been on this site for a while.

  it still amazes me how freakin' messed up i am from being brought up in the borg.

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  Hello there

  by flip4diz in

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  hey there from maryland.

  have not been on this site for a while.

  it still amazes me how freakin' messed up i am from being brought up in the borg.

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  I can't get it to work ... I clicked "browse" ... found the pic ...and hit update at the bottom ... have repeated this step several times.

  Hmmmm .....

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  Hello there

  by flip4diz in

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  hey there from maryland.

  have not been on this site for a while.

  it still amazes me how freakin' messed up i am from being brought up in the borg.

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  Hey there... mostly College Park here .... some Laurel and Lanham too.

  Is my avatar working yet?

  Alycia
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  Hello there

  by flip4diz in

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  hey there from maryland.

  have not been on this site for a while.

  it still amazes me how freakin' messed up i am from being brought up in the borg.

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  Hey there from Maryland. Have not been on this site for a while. It still amazes me how freakin' messed up I am from being brought up in the Borg. So I'm back for some support!

  Alycia
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  Realization today....Elder thinks of women as "Jezebel"

  by flip4diz in

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  can you say "therapy breakthrough"??????.

  omg!

  today at therapy i was relating to her how when i was 14 and was aquaintence raped by a boy who i skipped school with in a laundry room.

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  Can you say "therapy breakthrough"??????

  OMG! Today at therapy I was relating to her how when I was 14 and was aquaintence raped by a boy who I skipped school with in a laundry room. (We were supposed to go to someone's house and her Mom was home so it was freezing and no where to go, so we eneded up hanging in an apartment laundry room.)

  By today's standards what was done to me would be called "aquaintence rape" ... let's put it this way ... I was a virgin and he didn't even kiss me ... yeah ... I REALLY wanted it right?

  Well ... that is what the elders told me. I remember one looking at me saying how "He knew I wanted it because it was hard to find a laundry room door that locked ... we purposely set out to find one with a locking door."

  My therapist pointed out that I knew that was not true and here this man was looking at this 14 year old crying child and accusing her of being a "dirty Jezebel" ...

  That his opinion of women was that we were sex fiends or something. She explained it better but you know what ... she was right. He was "projecting" his ideas onto me.

  Then we just got into the discussion about the view of women in general.

  It all came so clear.

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  JW girls and me

  by Dustin in

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  i think i still might have a complex.

  so i'm gonna tell my story so you can all laugh at me.

  dustin

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  We were all bitchy because we were so sexually repressed.

  :-P

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  Can I pay for my therapy out of that collection box? LOL

  by flip4diz in

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  hey all ... have not been here in years.

  things look different!!!.

  i am just now realizing how much this religion f***ed me up!

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  Hey all ... have not been here in years. Things look different!!!

  I am just now realizing how much this religion f***ed me up! I mean BIG TIME. I have been going to a therapist as I'm working through getting out of a bad marriage and the more I go the more it comes out that I am who I am, and got into the situations I got into because of the horrible ABUSE ... yes ... ABUSE I endured as a child.

  If you were JW child ... you were ABUSED. In the most haneous emotional way possible. We were taught that everything was BAD, we were BAD if we fell short we would DIE if we fell short. Let's get MARRIED young ... when we are stupid and don't know any better so we can have SEX. Ya know ... cause you can't even touch yourself there or you'll DIE! OH .. or you have the other STELLAR option of pounding on doors 90 hours a month.

  ME in 1990: I'm gonna quit college because I don't see the system lasting long enough for me to benifit from it.

  ME in 2005: DOH!!!!!!!

  I haven't even started. Ya know!!!!!!

  FLIP

  35, Female ... Living childhood again through my two kids....