Excellent topic.
Even if none respond, they will certainly realize that they are unable.
It is a club and the worship is superficial.
One the first lie is confirmed, it's over for being a JW.
I hate that they lied to us. What a waste of time...
hello, lurkers and curious.
i imagine you're reading this because either you think you can defend your beliefs victoriously or you have doubts.. i have 2 questions that i hope you can log in and answer (no one will know who you are unless you tell them or leave your page open for others to see).
1. what actual worship did you do at the meetings or gatherings?.
Excellent topic.
Even if none respond, they will certainly realize that they are unable.
It is a club and the worship is superficial.
One the first lie is confirmed, it's over for being a JW.
I hate that they lied to us. What a waste of time...
sorry for the length of this, i hope anyone stopping by to read will take the time and read it.
i haven't included any things i would consider "apostate" specifics about doctrines, or major scandals.
it's just a general layout of the path i took to becoming an exjw.
Thanks for the experience.
Many components rang true with mine.
When you realize you've been duped, it's very hard to deny it any more.
Overlapping Generations instead of "Millions Now Living Will Never Die" started the ball rolling for me.
I also was inactive and resigned as a MS before I got the "courage" to look at "apostate web sites" on the internet. This is interesting and ties into the idea of information control or prohibition or certain things. When in field service, we were expected to converse with anyone and everyone. ( apostates live in the territories ) The only time we would turn away was if the householder said they were DF'd or apostate. So scary!!
Now I'm DF'd for "admitted apostasy".
( local legend )
My advice to all that are unsure what to do: stay home and research.
If you can no longer convince yourself that it's "the truth", then quit.
Hardest decision. Best outcome.
i was feeling particularly hopeless about the whole jws being assholes thing and sick to death of pretending so ....
i rang my sister and told her that i no longer believe jws have the truth and the phone went silent, when i asked her to say something she just said if that was the case then she would have to hang up on me and then proceeded to indeed hang up..
so i texted her back immediately with fu..
One of the nut case elderz that tried to "encourage me" really went the extra mile.
He sent me one text- "miss you, bro"
Shepherding...
there were many addressed to me.
for example, i once had a sister tell me i was gambling because i liked playing skill crane (the machine where you have to try to pick up prizes like stuffed animals) at the arcade.
i then fired back a her: "you saw the r-rated movie 'backdraft.
I was doing the stage mic adjustments at the circuit assemblies.
I was thrown off the stage by the CO for my shoes. Not shiny enough.
They were black suede shoes that I wore to all my local public talks and service assignments.
Being the lunatic dub that I was, I went out into the audience and found a friend of mine.
We swapped shoes and I was back on the roster!
Never mind that shoes can not be seen from the audience at the Fairfield Assembly hall in Northern Cal.
I would later use this pharisaic knowledge to my benefit.
I was already waking up, still a MS, getting confused and learning TTATT.
Don't want to do the stage anymore and just sit in my seat and space out?
No problem... Instead of wearing my CO approved matching pants and jacket suit, I wore a sport coat and slacks. <thrown off the stage>
All down hill from there...
i was feeling particularly hopeless about the whole jws being assholes thing and sick to death of pretending so ....
i rang my sister and told her that i no longer believe jws have the truth and the phone went silent, when i asked her to say something she just said if that was the case then she would have to hang up on me and then proceeded to indeed hang up..
so i texted her back immediately with fu..
I'm glad you made the move toward personal freedom.
You will forever wish you did it sooner. I know I do.
People are leaving and it is for all the right reasons.
March 25 1989. Fremont Assembly Hall.
They used to let you get baptized with your spouse. ( that's my first wife ) we were 19 and 20 years old.
From the most important day of your life...
if a fellow j.w.
asked a publisher/pioneer/missionary j.w., "how are your hours this month", they will gladly reveal how many hours they've racked up "for jehovah.".
now ask them, "how much money have you contributed to kingdom interests this month", they'd look at you as if you were beelzebub himself, and tell you that that was "personal.
How are your hours this month?
Matt 6:3,4
That would make a nice roadside sign on the way to the KH or Assembly.
Hmmmmm.....