Hello Jeeprube, and welcome!
***I've been inactive for several years now, but have been hiding from a true awaking about the reality of the WTBTS. I guess I just didn't want to face the real truth.
It sure hurts as much as being kicked in the stomach by a horse, doesn't it? I felt it like a physical pain every time I thought about it. NOBODY wants to face the truth, that we've been tricked and duped by what I feel is a cult. It's perfectly okay to feel this way, especially if you have been IN it a long time.
***The gradual awaking of the mind. As the brainwashing began to fade I began to really THINK for myself. All the little doubts that had been in my mind since my teens started to flourish.
Now you see why the WTS is so adamant that all its members attend so many meetings, and underline ALL the tripe they teach (along with "discussing" it at the meetings) they want to keep their beliefs foremost in your mind. This way you will be tired enough to not CARE about much else! It works, doesn't it!
***I think she is more afraid of losing her families love than anything. And that's really it isn't it? The way that they control us. They capitilize our families....steal them from us....use them to lead us and control us. The proverbial ring in the bulls nose.
BINGO! You got it! Where ELSE would the most vulnerable area be found? In the love we have for our families and the dear friends we cherish. Go along with the program---do as we say---and you will be fine. (NOT) But these tactics are well established and well practiced.
***Some day my own disgust for myself will lead me to DA myself, for surely a mans principles are more important than anything. For now I am afraid! Afraid of what I will lose, afraid of a life without love.
Reading this hurt ME! Please don't think of yourself as disgusting---you are a VICTIM OF A COLD-BLOODED CULT! And a very clever one at that! You seem to be a bright, intelligent and caring man.....so please build on that! DON'T let these creeps pull you down any more than they HAVE!!!
You are in GREAT company here, so many of us have been down the path that you are slowly traveling now. We are HERE for you anytime, if needed!