And I thought, when I saw the title of your thread, that you were getting hauled up for associating with Valis! I figured your parents turned you in for that one.
it'll be a good way for me to let out some of the anger thats been built up in me
It helped me. I hope it helps you. I waited one and a half years for the elders to get around to visit me, and I really let them have it. For me, that was closure and I've felt a lot better since. For others, just leaving and living their own life is best. If you don't feel completely satisfied after the visit, don't beat up on yourself. Say what you have to say and let it go. Remember that story in the Bible about the goat of Azazel? The poor little goat who had the sins of the Israelites heaped on him once a year and then was sent out into the wilderness, probably to be eaten by lions or something? Well, they're the goat, and their religion produced the garbage that's making you feel bad, so heap it all on them and when they leave, let the garbage leave with them. It's over. You don't ever have to do that again.
Now, when are you coming to Dallas? I think Valis has some trout in the freezer with your name on it!
Nina
