Met,
I tell you, I wanted to be a CO so bad.
And to be honest, I think I would have made a really good one.
Of course, there's no way now - mostly because I "know too much."
But back then, that was my life goal.
My now ex-wife and I pioneered for 10 years.
We purposely didn't have children.
And it was our goal to be in the Circuit work by 35. MY age now.
We were planning to be debt free and have enough money to keep one home paid for and some money in the bank.
I make a very good financial living, so it was very possible to be "retired" by 35.
It's a sore subject for me, because I was an MS for almost 10 years. And pioneered all that time.
And the FREAK'IN elders were so freakin jealous of me because I made so much money that they never made me an elder.
How do you pioneer and be an MS for 10 years and bring 8 people into the truth (tm) and not become an Elder!!!
Even the guy I studied with became and elder.
That was the begining of my spiral downward (or upward - depending on how you look at it.)
It's ok, though.
But to say that they are stuck in their jobs??? If I was them, back then, I would have welcomed it.
BTW, the one "good thing" was that I knew that I would never want to resent ANYTHING that I did in the truth (tm).
In a way, I partly regret not having children.
But I worked to make a lot of money, because there would be NO WAY that I was going to come off the Circuit Overseer list at 55 and try to find a job again.
I figure if I was going to do this, and do this happily. That I would need to "retire" from the Circuit work and have a home to come back to and some money.
Wow!!
I said a lot here.
Thanks to everyone who took the time to read this.
It hurts so much, because I gave my LIFE to this organization. And when I struggled with problems, they said F- YOU to me.