Terry,
I love this comment: " Why not keept THAT to ourselves like we would if we thought we were the reincarnation of Napoleon?"
This is how I feel. I don't push anything on anyone. If someone asks what I believe then I will tell them. Honestly, I believe there are other intelligent life-forms in our Universe, but I don't go around wearing a skull-cap of Reynolds wrap, or worrying about crop circles and ancient Sumerians. There are many things considered false that may end up being real. There are many "truths" that are lies. There are a myriad of things that you and I will never know in this life. That's why I appreciate your next comment as well.
" Doing for others in the here and now makes sense because the needs terminally ill people have are immediate and desperate."
I agree. Anyone can hand out books and tracts, and scream from a pulpit. I was talking to my Father about my beliefs, and my experiences with the Elders, and he said, " It only matters what YOU do." I was a bit disappointed at first, like the old Chinese tales of the warrior who travels up the mountain for the "secret." He finds the ancient mountain spring where all the answers lie. As he peers over the edge, he sees his own reflection. Then the truth hits you. It only matters what we DO. We can claim anything, but what are we doing?
Iamnobody..
I am glad that you came to this forum. It was no accident. Whether you were directed here or just decided to hit "ENTER" is anyone's guess. You made some interesting statements.
1) I CRY INSIDE CAUSE WE ARE ALL BROTHERS AND YET THERE'S AFFLICTION TO ONE ANOTHER.
Ask yourself WHY this affliction exists? If you have disagreements with the Organization, do you feel free to express them in your congregation? If not, why not? Are you afraid to be honest about your feelings with your brothers? Could you write them a letter, like what you have written here? What would happen to you if you did?
2) I SEE A DEAR FRIEND IN TROUBLE I CANT HELP,I HAVE NOTHING TO HELP WITH.
You may not have much materially for your friend. Still , you can be there for them through thick and thin. What do they need? Food? Clothing? Shelter? Why not ask your local Elders to contact World Headquarters for assistance? We just made 1 BILLION DOLLARS selling off buildings in New York.
3) I NEVER SPOKE BAD ABOUT THE ORGANISATION EVEN THOU I HAD LEFT,I NEVER TURNED AGAINST JEHOVAH BY GOING CONTRARY TO HIS LAWS I STILL WENT BY MYSELF AND PRAYED TO JEHOVAH,I STILL RELIED ON JEHOVAH.
That is commendable. We all make mistakes. Some of us let our feeling out by saying things that are harsh. That being said, some of the Bible messages are very scathing. ANYONE, including members of the Organization who are engaging in wrong conduct, will be held accountable. It's no sin to warn others of the consequences of their actions. PLEASE THINK ABOUT THIS: If you were present when Moses was about to claim credit for calling water from the rocks at Meribah, would you have told him not to do it? He was directly chosen by YHWH after all. Should you keep silent? What if you warned him and he had you taken outside the camp and stoned? We all have to accept our personal responsibility in the actions of a group. You are not doing anything wrong by telling others that they are straying from YHWH's commands and the teachings of God's word. That doesn't mean you won't suffer for it. In fact, " to this course you were called.." The more honest you are, the less hypocrisy you tolerate, the more you will be persecuted. We can't just say that we were following orders before the judgement seat.
4) I REALISED I DONT SERVE AN ORGANISATION EVEN WHEN IM PAINED BY THEM ITS WHERE I GET MY FOOD I TRY IGNORE MOST OF THE MISTAKES CAUSE JEHOVAH IS BACKING IT.
I am glad you realize that you do not serve an Organization. Have you told the Elders that? The problem is that the Oganization is a Corporation. It's a tool that could be used or discarded by God at any time. Did YHWH spare the Temple? Jesus said the hour was coming when those who worship, will worship in spirit and truth. You do not need a Corporation as your mediator. One of the saddest things is that many of our brothers and sisters give under glory to the Governing Body and the Organization. I fear it will only get worse before it gets better. If you do not agree with a decision the Organization makes, just say so. See how your Brothers react.
5) SO ANSWER ME THIS,WHY STOP OBEYING THE BIBLE,JEHOVAHS WORD,HIS GUIDLINES,YOUR BROTHERLY LOVE,THE WARNINGS,RETURNING INTO THE WORLD,DOING THE THINGS YOU SHOULD NOT BE,THINGS THAT JEHOVAH HATES,WHY IS THERE HATRED HERE.
I haven't. I don't get drunk, or smoke, or gamble, or cheat. I have been married to the same woman for decades. I have raised my child to be respectful and a good citizen. I obey the laws of my country. I treat my neighbors with respect, I help the elderly. I don't consciously do anything that YHWH hates.
6) WHO DO YOU SERVE:WATCHTOWER OR JEHOVAH.YOU ARE ANGRY AT THE WT BUT YOU TURN AWAY NOT FROM OUR FATHER.
You are correct, I have not turned away from our Father.
7) I DONT JUDGE NO ONE.
Good. Don't be a Pharisee.
8) THE WATCHTOWER IS THE ONLY PLACE TO GET FOOD AT THE PROPER TIME, YOU NEED SPIRITUAL FOOD,YOU CANT BE ALONE LIKE THIS.
Not true. Whether you mean the Watchtower Organization or the WT magazine, the ONLY channel of truth is God's Word and the Holy Spirit given to you as promised by Christ Jesus. The WT magazine is full of men's ideas and speculations that have turned out to be mistaken. I beg you to do some unbiased research. Pray for Christ Jesus to help you see what God's word is telling YOU. Then compare it with men's ideas. Also, there is no lie in truth. Think about this: If you were stranded on a deserted island and a trunk washed ashore containing a Bible, could YOU gain life from what you read? What if you never saw or interacted with another human? Would YHWH need to make sure that a WT magazine washed ashore every month? Or is all scripture truly inspired to equip you for salvation?
Also, I am not alone. Neither are you. I feel alone in a room full of people who worship what they do not know, people who praise an Organization, people who look at you funny if you say "Jesus" too much. people who flock to see Governing Body members at a Convention, but treat new partakers with suspicion. I feel alone around Elders who cannot be trusted with intimate feelings. I feel alone around people who label me as an apostate or false apostle because I do not agree with " ideas" of men.
Let me know if want help starting your own thread. If you feel that this site is too rough around the edges, the go to JWstruggle.com. Go to 21st-centurychristians.net with Brother Ed. Also, remember that oppression makes the wise on act crazy. We all have good and bad days. People get frustrated, it doesn't mean they are hateful.
ps. Get a Strong's Concordance and several translations of the Bible if you haven't already.
DD