xena, this may seem trite, but from someone older who has faced death 3 times in my life and won, life is not a destination, it is a journey.
I try to remember that and find some joy in every day. Today, I got up and look at my perennials and am happy to see the new green. Then I go down and see what has been happening on JWD and work on my review. As the sun comes up, my hubbie brings down my pills (more every year) and my breakfast. I'm glad for every morning.
I hope this is just a brief bump in your life.
((((hugs))) from Blondie and Irrev