It wasn't supposed to be like this, you know? I am a middle aged divorced woman with no college degree trying to raise a daughter pretty much on my own. Most of my life I believed I was never going to get old....never get divorced...never have to worry about retirement or putting my kid thru college....my parents were never supposed to die and my sisters were supposed to love me forever....
(((xena))) life just rises up and bites you on the butt sometimes dos'nt it?
I've lost my parents and my sister's unsupporitve to put it mildly.... i'm teetering on the edge as I try to decide exactly when to throw my childrens lives apart, risk getting blamed and risking loosing everything around me.....dont know if i'll have anywhere to live but need to jump ship desperately and start on my own with no guarantees of having anyone to catch me...but I know I have to consider myself on my own (and I could cope with that, i've left a marriage like jgnat before with nothing and ran...)........ but it's the unending mental responsibility of having children that sometimes seems over whelming when you're alone.. but we'll be ok....
you're going to bounce back, because we won't let you think you can't..... That's inspiring advice you've had from jgnat.......she's right.life's so black and white when you're young-and your daughter will remember how you were always there for her........
Sometimes I think we need to be allowed to retreat into a corner and lick our wounds for a while-but i'm sure it won't last long-you seem so strong.I know you can do this standing on your head-you'll show them all..........