...and all this time I thought it was over

by arrowstar 34 Replies latest jw friends

  • arrowstar
    arrowstar

    First and foremost let me thank each of you for all your kind words and support and your help today. The love that you all shared with me during this time means so very much to me that words escape me. (Someone make a note of this day....Lisa is speechless)

    seeitall - thank you

    Craig - I took no offense at all. I knew what you meant. thank you

    FMZ ((Keith)) Thanks sweetie

    ((Lady)) - I did "play dead". When I read your words, it was clear to me that's what I did. Thank you and I promise you that we will chat one-on-one this evening.

    cj - You should be here, gal. I'm making a batch of homemade guacamole. One of my favorite comfort foods.

    Doubtfully Yours - thank you

    Corvin - Thank you so much for the link.

    Avishai - thank you

    Special K - thanks

    Sassy - We probably do share a great number of things. Thank you

    xjw - thank you

    ((Nina)) - thank you for the call. It means a lot to me. And I promise I will call you if I need to....I promise

    ((Chris)) - >breathe in< >breathe out< I think I can do this...hell I know I can

    Odrade - thank you

    (((LT)))

    ((Kate)) - He won't be around.

    I'm going to take care of myself this evening. I came out alive so that's a positive. I've begun working through the negatives by telling what happened. I'm going to have some good ol' comfort food. Going to chat with y'all. Going to have a glass of wine and a long soak in the tub. One way or another, I'm going to take care of Lisa tonight.

    Thank you all so very very much....

    Love you

    Lisa

  • arrowstar
    arrowstar

    Dan - yep...that about sums it up.

    Maybebabies - thank you dear

    Lisa

  • Xandria
    Xandria

    Lisa,

    I definately understand. It is unlearning the play dead response. Learning to say, "NO"! and make yourself understood. Confrontation is never easy. Even I struggle at times with it. Because confrontation usually led to other things. You are not alone.

    Take care of yourself tonight pamper yourself and give yourself some time.

    X.

  • azaria
    azaria

    I thought Puternuts post was difficult enough. I'm so sorry for what you went through Lisa. One wonderful thing -all the people here who are so supportive and caring. It sounds like you have a lot of good friends, that will help you get through this. Take care. I'll be thinking about you.

  • jgnat
    jgnat

    Boy, can I relate to your feelings. Amazing how a single event can send us in to the same spiral of dread.

    I noticed a BIG difference between the old Lisa and the NEW Lisa, though.

    I bet that man is H I S T O R Y.

  • arrowstar
    arrowstar

    Xandria - I'm taking care of myself tonight. Made a kickass batch of guacamole. Had some peel & eat shrimp. Made some chocolate chips cookies (my son ate the greater share).

    azaria - thank you. that means a lot.

    jgnat - thank you...and you're right. He is yesterday's news.

    Lisa

  • Soledad
    Soledad

    Lisa

    I am so sorry to hear about this. I'm shocked, outraged, disgusted and sad all at the same time. I also know how it feels.

    Thankfully you got out of this alive. So don't beat yourself up over it; it is not your fault. It's now in the past, and in time you will emerge as a stronger, better person with so much more to give back.

    Please take care of yourself. My thoughts are with you.

  • arrowstar
    arrowstar

    Soledad -

    Thank you for your kind words.

    Everyone here has been such a great strength to me. It's been a tremendous help.

    I can't thank y'all enough.....

    Lisa

  • Tatiana
    Tatiana

    ((((((((((((((((LISA)))))))))))))))))

    My song for you.....

    Be strong.....

    She's faced the hardest times,
    You could imagine
    And many times,
    Her eyes fought back the tears
    And when her youthful world,
    Was about to fall in
    Each time her slender shoulders,
    Bore the weight of all her fears
    And a sorrow no one hears
    Still rings in midnight silence
    In her ears

    Let her cry,
    For she's a lady
    Let her dream
    For she's a child
    Let the rain,
    Fall down upon her
    She's a free and gentle flower
    Growing wild

    And if by chance,
    I should hold her
    Let me hold her for a time
    But if allowed just one possession
    I would pick her from the garden,
    To be mine

    Ummmm....................
    Be careful how you touch her,
    For she'll awaken
    And sleep's the only freedom,
    That she knows
    And when you walk into her eyes,
    You won't believe
    The way she's always payin'
    For a debt she never owes
    And a silent wind still blows
    That only she can hear
    And so, she goes

    Let her cry,
    For she's a lady
    Let her dream,
    For she's a child
    Let the rain
    Fall down upon her
    She's a free and gentle flower
    Growing wild

    Let her cry,
    For she's a lady
    Let her dream,
    For she's a child
    Let the rain
    Fall down upon her
    She's a free and gentle flower
    Growing wild

    She's a flower
    Growing wild

    She's free.......

    Love..........April

  • arrowstar
    arrowstar

    oh April...

    ((April))

    Thank you dear.

    love,
    Lisa

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