Why did you choose to have low self esteem?
I have never heard anyone making a conscience "choice" to have low self-esteem. I think the term has been given to us by the psychological profession ... and most people have come to believe that low self-esteem is developed during youth because of a bad homelife ... or having been involved in a criminal life, such as young girls who run off to the big city and get forced into prostitution and drugs and their self-esteem goes down the tank.
I certainly recall feeling I was not worthy to be a professional, like an engineer, etc. because my dad and grandmother were always talking down to me in a way that made me feel I could never achieve a good life, that I was not smart enough ... I did not know at the time I had a genius rated mind ... but, thanks to my mother and close friends, I crawled out of that type of thinking and my self-esteem grew to new levels ... and I eventually achieved what I think is a normal and healthy level of self-esteem.
Within the last year or two, I have equated my sense of low self-esteem with a depressed spirit because my life experience with health and money are not where I want to be ... some resulting from choices and some just plain bad luck ... but, I am doing much better today ... so I guess self-esteem may be confused with other emotional trends ... but, I don't necessarily thnk of low or high self-esteem as choices, but rather as symptoms of other problems.