About 10 years ago, and before I woke up, I attended my last JW memorial. At one of the last memorials that I attended, the passing of the bread went as usual. As the bread approached me, I took the plate and pased it to the person at my right. Then came the prayer over the wine. As the wine approached me, I waited for it to arrived to me, readying myself to handle it very carefully as I would pass it to the person to my right. Secretly, I always liked being able to smell a whiff of the wine as it passed in front of me. But just as I was about to take the cup of wine from the person sitting to my left, the attendant swooped in and took the cup of wine from the person on my immediate left. He leaned back away from me holding the cup of wine and then handed it to the person who was sitting on my right. I was astonished. I didn't even get to smell the wine. And I felt insulted. What did they think that I was going to do? Grab it and guzzle the whole cup? Also, it is almost certain that a ministerial servant would not take it upon himself to do such a thing. It is most likely that the elders had given him the instruction ahead of time to do this.
I "woke up" about four years ago. A year after I woke up, I partook of the emblems for the first time. Also, I was so glad to learn that I would be a member of the bride of Christ, and would be reunited with my dear Grandmother who had always partaken of the emblems. Also my Grandfather had partaken of the emblems, but he had died when I was a little over a year old. All my life I'd been taught by Watchtower that I would live forever separated from my Grandparents. Especially over the permant loss of my Grandmother, I had cried out to Jehovah. How cruel are Watchtower's teachings!
