Hello everyone. I sometimes was redirected to this page from reddit or another ex-JW site but never bothered to sign up. I wanted to stay off the radar but since I'm getting dis-fellowshipped anyways and have no plans to come back what the hell. I don't have much to tell you. Been 22 years in the truth........... ahhhh I hate to use that expression...... bad habit but you know what I mean. Converted after college under pressure from my family. Not that I didn't believe it---- OH I did believe it because it seemed like every week I was saying "the truth makes so much sense!" Well of course it made sense when the information you are using (Watchtower publications) is all cut and trimmed to fit their agenda of the JW.org mentality. Going out in service and having the smoke blown up your ass makes you really feel good about being a JW and all the good feelings and unanswered questions to everything seem to come together.
Being a JW is like living a world of pink unicorns and rainbows made from skittles. You're sheltered and protected and made to feel that way--------------- so long as you play by their rules! OH yes you need to follow the rules of men or else you are not going to be saved! Put your service time in each month and on time. Get to every meeting, on time and prepared. Give answers. Hide your tattoos. Don't wear perfume because it might offend someone or cause unexpected arousal of a brother. Don't show too much cleavage! Hide those knees! Make donations.
And then something changed about 2 years ago. I noticed a few in my hall started to drop away. At the time I thought they were no longer spiritual and needed help. But the reality was I was the one who was sick under the spell of a cult.
The worst thing about being a Jehovah's Witness is not knowing you are in a cult. OH no that can't be. WE are most definitely not a cult since we don't murder babies and eat their hearts in secret underground meetings!
But the JW.org is guilty of many many many deaths from suicide because of shunning, child abuse and other crimes, deaths from refusing blood transfusions. So many things. All the people who gave up on getting an education and having children because the GB said not to.
When you are inside you can't see that it is a cult. Step outside for 5 minutes and suddenly the light shines on the darkness. And I have been captive for too long. I'm enjoying every vice there is and it feels great. Here is to everyone who is awake! I love you all!
And thank God for the internet!