Shamus' Story On Leaving The Organization. (page 3)

Prudence

(((Shamus)))

Thanks for sharing your story.

I too, can relate to some of what you said.

Love, Pru

Aztec

Awww Shamus! If you ever want to chat about depression let me know okay? I've been there more than once. Thank you for taking the time to write that out.

~Aztec

pettygrudger

((((Shamu))))) What an awe inspiring thread! See how far you've come!

Most depression is due to medical conditions - and its amazing how they can just overlook that fact.

You were able to show "true" love & affection for your fellowman - something the JW's while under their mind control cannot do. You saw through it, and above it. That says alot about you and your emotional/mental stability.

Hats off to you!

ESTEE

(((((Shamus)))))

Lotsa lotsa lotsa hugs are in order....IMHO...very healing...thanks for sharing this.

The only thing that I heard from the platform was you're not doing enough. Never, ever doing enough. Say that to a depresses person long enough, and he will die. End of story. Can you imagine feeling so guilty after every meeting for not being with the “in” crowd, with my anxiety??? Then to get beaten up every meeting by not saying one good thing about what you are doing?

I relate...I relate with sooooo much of what you are saying here, Shamus. I too dealt with the "Not good enough" syndrome from trying to live as a dub.

*insert sound of beating myself up*

It wasn't bad enough that I would let them beat me up....I then proceeded to beat myself up.....for not being "good enoughTM".

Dubs encourage and promote low self-esteem, low self-worth, co-dependency, conditional love. It is a fear-based religion. If you don't live a certain way, you are destined to die at ArmageddonTM because the hateful vindictive god whom they worship will kill you ... quite dead. Why...? Because you displeased some weird elder...? 'Cuz you didn't spend enough hours in ServiceTM, in Bible ReadingTM...? If god is as demanding and beligerent as the dubs are, then I don't want to live in this world. I don't want to worship or acknowledge such a god.

Fortunately, we have the choice of staying and taking their abuse....or leaving and choosing a new and healthy path of life. I chose the healthy portion. I love my life now and am no longer depressed. And I see that it is your choice, too, Shamus. I am very proud of you!

I have since re-visited the god-stuff, and realize that everything I need to feel happy is already inside me.I possess a beautiful spirituality ... and I simply don't need such a vicious jw god in my consciousness.

Thanks again for sharing your story!!!

(((((More Hugs)))))

ESTEE

ikhandi

Shamus a sincere thank you to you for posting that story! I can totally relate because I also suffered from clinical depression and made out okay, thanks to receiving medical treatmen(treatment I was advised not to seek from elders) You have given a lot of people hope. I am glad to see you doing better.

Mystery

((((((Shamus))))))

Writing helps some people - sharing what we write helps not only ourselves, but others as well.

Thank you Shamus.

shamus

I am just overwhelmed right now with you all. You are all so kind....

I can't say thank you enough. You have all made me feel that life is absolutley worth living.... again, thank you thank you thank you.

You will never know how much better I feel right now. (sorry about the one sided post here).... it feels so good to get it out.

(((ESTEE))) and (((EVERYONE))) Thank you. and I hope that you all know how very few times that I use those silly little huggy things... NEVER.

Thank you all again. I know that my story is not the only one out there, and I hope to hear from you all too about depression and how the borg tried to kill you with their "love"...

Kenneson

Shamus,
I'm glad you're on this forum and took the time to share your story with us. Yes, it's good to be free. Thanks.

Special K

Wowy, .. wowy!!! SHAMUS!!!

How brave to share your thoughts like that.

Hey Shamus..that was telling it like it is for you.

You spoke about your feelings right from the tender age of 7 and about crying everyday and wishing you were dead. That brings tears to my eyes. I have a son that is 8, and to think that a boy that young could be that depressed is hard for me to think about. If I were your mother I would have wanted to just wrap you up in a blankie and rock all the yuckies away. I would have smothered you with Love as a young boy.

They say now that some people can have a chemical imbalance in the brain that causes this, especially if there have been no signs of other childhood traumas.

You also, told of how when you went of medication that the depression lifted.. Maybe it was from a chemical imbalance that needed medication rather than the temporary reliefs of alcohol. I don't know, I am no doctor.

You know, shamus, some people don't think that small children suffer from depression.. but sometimes they do and it's sad that some parents refuse to recognize it.

I was having a talk with someone today and it seems somewhat apparent that the Watchtower has a way of sucking in a depressed soul.. because of the carrot they dangle in front of ones eyes.. The new paradise, and all oppression to be gone..

Do you think that is how they gut you in, too? All those false promises.

I'm just glad your out, Shamus. Glad your free from all the forced perfectionism of the WTBTS. I think that for someone who has bouts of depression being in the J.W. religion would make one more depressed even possibly to the point of thinking of suicide.

I'm very glad you had enough self awareness that . that didn't happen to you.

You take care Shamus, you have opened up your heart here to us on this forum today,... that took alot of guts,.. more than I have at the moment, because I have not been able to do that.

Just the thought of posting my WHOLE STORY, makes me feel ...vulnerable and scared.

You again did a good thing today ,and I have heard it said that by writing your story it may feel like a purging of the inner soul. A pouring out of hurt, pain and anger and .. then after a feeling of relief and quietness sets in for a bit.

Is that how you feel? or not?

Take care Shamus

Big Hugs to you (((((( SHAMUS )))))) because you began...

sincerely

special k

run dont walk

great story, WOW !, I went through some simliar problems.

Shamus' Story On Leaving The Organization.

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