Shamus' Story On Leaving The Organization. (page 2)

Dansk

Hi Shamus,

The really great thing about your post is that we can all identify with some/many/all apsects of it.

Often I used to come home from meetings feeling like yuk because the people were as you described. It seemed like forever that I was leaving it with Jehovah - and it never got better. I prayed day in, day out - but it never got better. I told my wife frequently "There's something wrong here. This is supposed to be the truth!", but I could never put my finger on what was wrong. And it never got better!

What was wrong is that the whole freak show is based on garbage; there's no Jehovah, 607 BCE is groundless, millions living in 1925 who were told they would never die are all dead, the Bible can't stand up to serious scrutiny and the Borg right down to elder level is being run by a bunch of sycophantic, patronising megalomaniacs. And inside the Borg it isn't getting better.

So, like you I saw sense. At first I was afraid that I'd turned my back on God, cried every day for a week, lost my two daughters through my "apostacy" and felt there was nowhere to go! And you know what, after two weeks, and especially after coming here, things started to get better!

Now, I'm free - REALLY free - and I see life from an entirely new perspective. Shamus, you're far from being on your own. LIke you I had bouts of depression - but I couldn't understand why as I was in Jehovah's only true loving organisation on earth

A great post, Shamus. It took courage and effort and now you can leave it all behind you. It's a great feeling being set free. Now, don't think of the past, live only for today and don't waste it by thinking about what you might do tomorrow. TODAY IS ALL THAT MATTERS!

Love,

Dansk

shera

(((((((((((((((((((Shamus))))))))))))))))))))))

I can relate to you some Shamus.Glad your healing.

Heather

Loris

What a heart wrenching story! Thank you for trusting us with your pain.

They took a depressed young person and almost crushed you. It is frightening to know that they have done the same thing thousands of times before and continue to this day. How many depressed people don't make it to freedom? How many have been driven to the ultimate dispair and take their own lives?

Your story is so vitally important for all to see. By your bareing your soul you may save a life.

(((((((((((Shamus)))))))))))))

Loris

CruithneLaLuna

Shamus,

As is (nearly?) always the case with humans, you and I have some significant things in common, though our personalities and other details differ. I too had problems with depression. It took me a Very long time to get to the point of placing a portion of the responsibility for it on the org and its god (or concept of Divinity, if you prefer).

I'm happy to report that, once I broke free of the org, and the ridiculous fears it inculcates of doing ANYTHING that could be genuinely healing to emotional problems, I began a program of personal growth designed to make me a happy, well-adjusted, productive human. I'm happy to report that it seems to have worked well, so far. I expect there will always be room for improvement, but I'm doing so much better now. I actually evaluate myself as "happy" most of the time.

I would say that medication and therapy have their place at certain stages of healing, but I got most of my positive results from more esoteric techniques.

Anyways, I appreciated your story. Thank you for writing it.

Warm regards,

Cruithne

Odrade

((((Shamus))))) thanks for writing that. Took guts.

caligirl

Thank you for sharing your story shamus. I can relate to a lot of your thoughts.

shotgun

Shamus I remember from a long past thread you posted your forum name Shamus had to do with never living up to expectations and feeling shame...Feel shame no longer my friend you are free of the guilt which you never deserved to begin with.

Thanks for sharing ...BTW hope things are going good in your new location.

shamus

Thank you all for your support.

I am very sorry that I swore so much... the memories flooded back into my mind, and I had the PIxies cranked up to ten, and didn't stop for a while.... sorry again.

Look, the borg is a horrible thing. It HAS taken lives because of depressed people not being able to get help. I know that, and many of you have personal experiences posted here in other threads stating so... lost loved ones...

It hurts me very much to relive these experiences. However, it must be a part of the healing that I must go through... to relieve my guilt. I feel and still feel guilty about not being up to snuff, so to speak, for a religion. However, realizing that this religion is a horrible cult, and realizing that this is NOT the way makes things okay. I still need to heal from all the guilt. It was thrown on me so much, it may take years to get rid of it...

Anyways, thanks again for all your posts. I really appreciate everyone's encouragement. It was far more than I got at any "loving" kindumb hall.

Now I remember why I hate those guys.... god can kill me if he wants to. I won't live by those rules. I'd be dead.

Anyways, I am happy today! Sorry about sounding so "glum"...

xjw_b12

Anyways, I am happy today! Sorry about sounding so "glum"...

Now if we can just figure out a way to get you high-speed internet.....for cheap !

RAYZORBLADE

Hey Shamus: 3 cheers to you and a pint of Kokanee

Yup, the show: The Beachcombers, time for you to be like the character: Relic.

Give'm hell.

I wrote a long story too, back in May/June on Dansk's thread. Took me more than 2 hours to write it, and for those who took time to read it, and wrote a follow-up, it felt good to see the acknowledgement.

Great story, because it was yours, and well...it helps us get a better idea of who Shamus is.

I'm sending you a pm (keep an eye out for it).

Best wishes Shamus, the taste of freedom is sweet.

Shamus' Story On Leaving The Organization.

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