First off: a huge thanks to (iiz2cool) - I had a chance to voice some of my feelings last night.
Lately, lots has gone on, but I have to admit, when you've lost 2 of your best friends in a short period of time, it sure as hell hurts, and I had wondered why I was feeling so 'out of sorts'.
Should be obvious. But sometimes it isn't.
On December 29, 2002, a very close and dear friend of mine (Robert) died in his sleep, of a brain aneurysm; on October 4, 2002, a woman beyond description (Nina) died of ALS (Lou Gherig's Disease). Both of my closest dear friends, died. I had nothing to replace them with.
Coming to this forum, initially helped.
But lately, I have to admit, I was feeling out-of-sorts (for many reasons). Only a year before that, my father died, and another very close and dear friend (a father figure), died the day before my father died in November 2001.
I don't know.....perhaps I am having a delayed reaction to it all.
There are nights where I am here at home, wishing I could call/e-mail either one of them, but I can't. I miss both of them: Robert & Nina, terribly. Robert lived around the corner from me, and considering all that he had lived through: a freakin' brain aneurysm took his life. I miss him.......terribly!!!
Last night, last week, amongst other things: it all hit me, and I felt alone.
Funerals outweigh Weddings, as I have gotten older.