And another thing...
I have tried to mingle and find friendships outside of the JW sphere, but it's been totally uncomfortable and even disastrous at times.
At parties and other home gatherings there's always the games/entertainment with sexual tones, fowl language galore, blatant gossip and being overtly offensive with each other, always the drunks and the ones that cannot have a good time without smoking weed or some other drug of choice.
Outside the JWs' demeanor, even if it's fake, I just cannot deal.
On the other side, this last weekend, as just about almost every single Saturday in the Spanish side, we had a big wedding anniversary party. There we all had such great fun: Games, eating, dancing, checking out people I hadn't seen in a while; and, in moderation even a little drinking. Everyone looked so nice, festive without being scantily clad. It was just all around my type of fun environment.
This sentiment I cannot find, although I have tried. A JW is what I am, even in disagreement of some stuff.
It is complicated.