Okay I understand where you guys are coming from. Yeah my kids come first. Of course I would never leave them, is that what some of you are thinking? :( I do my best every day to give them everything they need.
I am also thinking of my husband in this situation. I think he deserves better than this. He deseerves someone who's truly in love with him.
Unfortunately I was an idiot and thought I was doing the right thing by jehovah. And it was the right thing by my mums standards and the religions hold on me.Not so much mine. I've never been selfish my whole life. I always put jehovah first or what my mum wanted.
I cousdnt even have my best friend as a bridesmaid at my own wedding because mum said she is worldly. You can't do that.
I've left out a lot of my life in this post. I really am not a drama queen. I don't have social media for that reason.ive just come to a point where I'm sick of doing everything for other people, I've never made descisions in my life because it feels right to me. And I'm over it. I wish I backed myself more.
I wanted to share my story as it's all in my head at the moment and I can't let it out to anyone and my head feels like it's going to explode,
but I will book into a counselor,
thanks for your time.