I am not a patient person,,,,,,,,,at all, I want them all ( JW's) to see in my lifetime, so I can see it.....lol. proven wrong. Maybe if there is a life after death, I hope there is,,,,,,,,, when we are all in Heaven, we can finally be told by the ones who treated us so bad, that they were wrong about it all. I don't know , I dont think I care about alof of what other JW's think , even in the afterlife, when the way they think things were going to turn out doesnt,,,,,,,,,,,,,but oh yeah I can't wait for my Dad to have to answer for the things he has done to hurt me, my sister, my mother and my children. My story is long and twisted too and I have alot of resentment to my father right now........... I have for years over other things not really JW related but in around about way they were.
I guess it is just imperfect human nature to want to be vindicated when you have been done wrong. It is not so much that I have been done so wrong by my dad, but his attitude that gets to me. His self rigtheous attitude and his better than everyone eles attitude. I would love to be there when God tells him he is not better than anyone eles, and he did not have a special purpose for him after all, and that he totally missed the whole Christain idea of what he was talking about. I honestly wouldnt want to rub my dad's face in it , but I would love to see him admit he was wrong,,,,,,,and to see him change , to see if he could change and would.
But I doubt I see that on this side of life ya know. So I have to work on myself and try to be the best person I can be,,,,,,,,, it is hard to be so angry and bitter over the things he has done to me and my family,,,,,,,,but I do try to think that if he ever changed his attitude , even just a little bit, that some day things could be different. He treats all of his brothers and sisters different than he does me, they are practicing Catholics who are not ever going to be JW's, but in my dad's eyes........ I am a dog who has returned to it's vomit. It is hard to be thought of like that,,,,,,,,,, especially when I know his hypocritical double standards............. sorry for the rant and rave...............
Hugs to you DJ