as a jw you 1) have an inside track into the mind of God through gb, 2) are favored and better than the world, 3) have love among yourselves, 4) have accurate knowledge, 5) know the secrets of bible mysteries, 6) know you will be saved while the world is destroyed, 7) are part of the exclusive theocratic arrangement, the with God as head, 8) have joy, peace, etc. 9) have ready made social life and no social life apart from org. 10) know you can trust the ability of fds to dispense truth....and on and on. there is systematic persuasive biblical "evidence" to convince you of the above.
to enjoy the blessings of being jw you must be humble, sheeplike and obedient. as a female it is even more intensified; you are in subjection and subservient.
when i heard about jim jones, heaven's gate, and others i knew the psychology is exactly the same.
i can remember back when i would have these flashes of doubt come into my mind, how terrifying that was and how i immediately dismissed them, shutting them out. how is it possible that your parents whom you trust could raise you this way, so that you have become a faithful follower, to the extent of devoting your entire life to it, sacrificing all material things, sacrificing friends, sacrificing formal education. would your parents lie to you? could these parents whom you trust - brilliant father/mensa mother possibly be wrong? no. just too too scary to entertain those thoughts. when you seem to see error you dismiss it. you deny your own powers of reasoning. and how will you survive without the "ark"?? you are imprisoned by fear.
what wins? fear or intelligence? your mind or theirs?
my father always maintained a spark of individual independence. his drilling acts 17:11 into my brain finally helped to win the battle for me. though, indeed, in was a long, difficult, painful battle.
may there be evermore winners.
best wishes, nowisee