Belated welcome from me too dear Phoebe. I too was born in, in the early 1950's. I was baptized at the tender (know nothing) age of 12.
I walked away age 58.
I too took Counselling, and am so pleased I did. My wonderful Therapist understood how to help me cope with suicidal thoughts, and the pain of leaving the only world I knew. Of course, the "religion" was at the root of my problems.
Life for me and my dear wife is now not totally free of problems, we are old, poor and have lost all our former "friends".
But the wonderful freedom of thought, the release from all guilt and the sheer pleasure of finding out about the real world make each day a joy !
I am now happy in my own skin, and a much nicer person than when I was a JW in many ways, we were forced to be so judgmental, prejudiced and condemning of all non-JW's, and of many who were JW's !
May your life continue to get better, may you find happiness and fulfillment, and joy !