On VH1 last nite they played the Selena movie, I am pretty sure everyone remembers Selena the singer. I wanted to do some research to find out it they really were witnesses and more of their story.
I read that when Selena was shot, she was dead on arrival at the hospital, but the doctors performed heroic measures to save her life, even giving her 5 blood transfusions.
When her father got to the hosptial and was told she was gone , even after they tried to give transfusions, he said,,,,,,,,No she wouldn not have wanted blood transfusions. But the doctor said there was no way he knew this,and it didnt matter anyway, there was nothig that could have been done.
In later interviews, Selena's father Abraham, said that he wondered if they would have pursued spritual things instead of putting her career first , she might still be alive and be dedicated to Jehovah. And that he felt guilt that she is dead because of not doing that, as the head of the house.
He said that her death cause the whole family to do more with their spirtuality. He said he knows he will see Selena again in the resurrection, that to him it is like she is gone a vacation and not dead.
I felt really sorry for him , feeling so guilty over something he had no control over, it was a terrible thing that happened , but I just mentioned this because it shows how the WT teaches us to blame ourselves when something bad happens to us. It is like the WT , elders etc. makes us go back and se what we did wrong, to cause something bad happening to us. Did we miss too many meetings, did we give token service, did we not study the bible daily? etc. etc.
This was an experience given at a circuit assembly I was at a few years ago. I will try to be brief with it. This JW family had kind of slacked on on their meeting attendance and another meeting night was before them. He was tired and the kids were still outside playing , so he decided not to go. His little girl was out riding her bike and was ran over and killed. This brother said, that he will never forgive himself for not being at that meeting, because if he had taken his little girl, she would still be alive, sitting there in the seat next to him.
Again a sad , terrible accident,,,,,, but somehow we as JW always see any tragedy that befalls us as our fault or preventable by us if only we were putty Jah first above all eles.
When I heard this experience at the circuits assembly, I was in sobbing tears.......... I thought how terrible this poor man has to go around feeling he killed his daughter in a round about way.
Have you heard any experiences like this or did you ever feel this way when bad things happened to you as a JW, did you wonder what you had done wrong to cause it?