we dont want to ever speak to or see you again..."
I'm so sorry Kelpie. I cried like a baby when my father told me this, and he was a lousy SOB who never gave a damn about me. I can only imagine how much it hurts coming from a parent you cared for and you thought cared about you.
Megadude is right. It will hurt for a long time. Eventually it will heal and leave a scar, just like a physical wound. Grieve for what you lost and for what you could have, and should have had. The feeling is appropriate.
I can't ever imagine saying this to my daughter.