Do you think perhaps you were guided here by the loving hand of The Teacher, the Spirit of Truth? You have been warmly welcomed by a group of people who do not know you, but who have taken you at face value and who are pleased that you have found your way to us via whatever means. All of us have been where you are now. In fact, many of us continue to be in your very shoes and you can certainly help one another. There's a lot of that going on here, helping one another I mean.
I believe you would greatly benefit from hanging out here with us for awhile. We are all doing pretty much the same thing: seeking the truth, seeking healing from our longer or shorter association with the WTBTS.
I hope you'll continue coming back here. You certainly are welcome.