Do you ever wonder why out of all the Witnesses, you are the one that woke up? I wonder many times why me. I know many men and women that are much, much better persons than me; either they are much smarter, more humble, kinder, more successful, or just better persons all around.
My mom for example is the greatest woman I have ever met. That lady has only a 1st grade education, is 90 percent deaf, and when I was born, my father left us and she raised me all by herself. She always put me first in her life. I will never be that good of a person.
I’ve seen brothers that were truly caring and self-sacrificing die of old age and never waking up they were misled. I’ve seen the kindest grand moms get cancer and die a slow death totally unaware they were in a cult.
Then I see myself, I don’t even come close to some of these people.
So why did I wake up?
This is what makes it hard for me to believe that God is a good person. If anyone deserves to wake up and escape the cult, it’s all these other people that are better than me. They deserve to enjoy their life free from guilt and fear.
Because I see this, sometimes I question myself if perhaps I’m wrong. But then I reflect on the abuses of the organization and I’m back to square one.
If there was a God that cared, he would pull out these good people out of the cult first. The Bible says;
“Jehovah knows how to deliver righteous people”
But that’s not the case is it?