Today my daughter is ten years cancer free. Of course, much of that is owed to the tranfusions of blood products. Products that I did not hesitate to have given to her.
With so much going on in my life (recent death in the family), this board, and just the general rush of life, this very important day nearly got by me. I hesitated to share it here, but I though some positive news would be like a cool afternoon breeze to some here. It's been gutwrenching here the last few days.
When I realized a few weeks ago that this anniversary was coming up I thought I might go on a great angry diatribe against the WTS. It's depraved and convoluted blood doctrine and the loss of life that was, and is, so unnecessary. The thoughts so swirled in my head that the energy of them could punch holes in concrete walls. But, I changed my mind. I just want to reflect on the last ten years. That horrible day ten years ago. It started off with an allegation of child abuse, my child removed from my custody (and anyone that knows my history and how passionate I am about children would understand this was DEVASTATING to me. It is a very long painful story that I just prefer not to share in detail), and her return with a "gee sorry, we were wrong...your kid has cancer (Leukemia)....here ya go Mom! See ya, bye!".
How absolutely grateful I am for all of the wonderful and good things that are happening, and have happened, in those ten years. Oh, many of those days SUCKED, big time. How in the heck did I get through them? I don't know. I just hung on by my fingernails. And we are here. Most importantly, SHE is here. And I am just so god damn grateful.
Andee
Though a few years old, that is one of my favorite pictures of my kid.