Why are You here?
Joy2bfree and I have so enjoyed meeting over 70 of the posters here on JWD in the last few months. This has brought us even closer to many, yet the things I learned about each made me even more concerned about others here. I hope each is getting what they need from this CyberPub we visit.
As I have grown on this journey of truth I have gone through several phases. Do you remember the thrill you had as you discovered knew things while reading online. How about that knot in your stomach as you hesitantly pressed the enter key on your first post! But you moved on with this journey, into new phases. Where are you now? Why are you here?
1 To learn
This is why I came here initially. My first post asked a question for which I truly wanted an answer. Having a taste from H2O and JWD of the incredible information being hidden form my eyes I recognized the foolishness of allowing others to dictate what information you can look at. Having reached this point I read every book I could get and couldnt get enough at Randys site http://freeminds.org/ and the extensive research found http://quotes.jehovahswitnesses.com/ , Shauns www.jwfiles.com. and many others.
In just the last year the UN/NGO scandal was exposed right here.
About 8 months ago we were linked to the Jensen/Watchtower blood letters. http://watchtower.observer.org/apps/pbcs.dll/article?Date=20020123&Category=JWANDMEDICINE2&ArtNo=201220009&Ref=AR
We watched Silent Lambs fight for victims of a bad policy and finally got the issue to the public: http://www.silentlambs.org/
I still come here to learn, but there are other reasons I visit now.
2 To receive support
I have gone through some extreme emotions I suspect most of you also went through or will go through. I think I have gone through all the emotions of grief. After all, I left behind 36 years of my life that I try not to view as a loss but it is sometimes hard. Many of us have lost friends and even family just because we opened our eyes. We lost the CIRTAINTY that had been sold us and now stand alone before God, as we should, but this is one more adjustment.
Having spoke to many of you on our Apostofest circuit, I know many of you found life saving support in friends online. It is helpful to listen quietly to others who have been through this already. It is therapeutic to see the angry express our own anger, to listen to the injured express our injury. It is most encouraging to me to see how people like Englishman, Ozziepost and many others have come through balanced, reasonable and self confident. I think to myself Yeah, we can make it. We will be OK, even happy again someday.
Even among the scared and the angry ones we form a bond, because we can relate. All this adds up to a community. For some this is the only community we have, and for many it is a great community.
3 To give support
When we are shown love most of us quickly respond with love. While still learning and receiving support we all find someone in need that WE can help. Those further down the road of recovery are now experts at helping others down that road. How often have we seen a new poster express their pain and get flooded with sympathy and understanding.
I have been told by Megadude and several others that I still sounding like an elder. At a couple of Apostofests I was even told I still dress like an elder. IM AM GOING TO CHANGE THAT! But one thing I hope not to change is the desire I had as an elder to help others, even sacrifice myself for others. Yes, there are even now some good men in the organization with such pure motives. While I hope to become more of a real person I hope to never loose my desire to serve the needs of others. Any lurking JW elders might consider doing what Jesus encouraged, willingness to leave the 99 to find the one lost sheep.
I have spoken in the last 2 weeks with several people here who seriously contemplated suicide but have survived due to help from this community. But I have also spoken to some whos friends or relatives did not survive. This has brought tears to my eyes several times. I lost an 18 year old brother because of the twisted atmosphere in which he grew up. I wonder if he would be here now if I had known what I know now. I tried to help him but failed. At least now I have shed the mindless dogma that prevented me from being realistic and effective in dealing with depression and suicide in the past. I hope to continue helping friends in such need.
So why are YOU here. Any other ideas?