We were betrayed with false promises, and willingly looked like asses for years pushing this new world order. I gave up all childhood joys for it. My wife has suffered for it (her parents were JWs).
My wife and I were "examples in the congregation". We are good people, and have been used badly.
The general thoughts of Witnesses is not to "abandon Jehovah". But, where does the actions of men and jehovah begin? According to Watchtower, sometimes these lines are purposely blurred so as to strengthen us.
A wicked elder is never removed? God or men? A young man kills himself after being DF'd for smoking. His emotional pain at being abandoned for a small sin is so great he takes his life. Smoking could be remedied with love and attention, but the WT chooses expulsion, because it's less work. God or men?
You squarely blame the Watchtower for many things, that we have seen. I understand where you are coming from there. But your theology is still Watchtower, except for a few small things you yourself have come to believe. Why not just separate yourself from the Watchtower? You call yourself a Jehovahs Witness, but you could be DF'd for many of your views. You could be shunned as many of us have, and some of us have been df'd for similar reasons...sticking up for what is right.
Your Sunday morning sermon is interesting, but I don't agree. God's fulfillment could only be in love. What miracle could come from being one of the 2 million out of 6 billion that survive a horrible catyclysm? The emotional ramifications are as horrific as your predictions. If I lived in that world, I would be sick to my stomach every day, as to God's continuing judgement. I would weep for the people who were dead. I would wail at all of the destruction and death. What emotional toll is for those 'survivors'?
That's why I can't believe that judgement is imminent. The judgement (eternal death) doesn't fit the purpose (vindicating Jehovah's name). Jehovah could vindicate his name in a sign that DIDN'T kill 6 billion people, and you'd better believe people would be good boys and girls after that. He could destroy Satan and make a paradise WITHOUT killing everyone, and changing their cruel hearts with wonderful fancy. But, why the bloody sword, why always the bloody sword?
Sorry, YK. It just will never make sense to me.