Welcome kneehighmiah, What other plans do you have? Are you planning on attending college like your friends? Are you planning to do more independent research of the WTBTS? Life is too short slaving for a printing and distribution, and real estate holding corporation.
I hope that you continue to vent your feelings on JWN so that you can maintain your relationships with JW family and friends.
Best of wishes thinking critically for yourself.
Peace be with you and everyone, who you love,