Can I say all of the above?
A) In my heart, I'm definitely an ex-JW.
B) As an ex, I'm a non-JW, but have a mother, sister, and wife that are still in, as well as a very close friend.
C) Technically, I'm inactive, because most of the time I count for witnessing probably wouldn't be allowed and I didn't knock on one door for the past two months.
D) But on paper I get a few hours a month that says I'm active, only because my conscience allows me to count a lot of informal witnessing that the elders probably wouldn't allow if they knew.
I do it all for the family, but probably not much longer. My best friend is already joking about me being an apostate. Hopefully, the jokes will help him get past shunning me when that time comes.