So my husband and I have not attended a meeting since the memorial. Prior to that we had been in a new congregation for about 9 months, and we were just irregular. My husband rarely went, and I would go occasionally with our toddler son just enough to show our faces and keep the elders off our backs, and for the sake of some friendships in our old hall.
The last meeting I went to, I was sitting there and suddenly realized that I just did not want to be there. All of the reasons I had for going were just no longer important. I realized that i was going because of what other people would think. I haven't attended a meeting since, it's going on nearly three months now. We've now made peace with the fact that we will likely lose many so called friendships due to our inactivity (and soon, as people from our old hall know people in our new hall)
Since the memorial we've missed a CO visit, and the special zone meeting. We have not received a phone call or visit from anyone in our hall, except for once a month when my husband gets a text message from our service group overseer asking for our time. So much for the love of our Christian brotherhood ... But that's another thread.
While we are definitely enjoying the newfound freedom that has come with our fading ... I also feel incredibly lost.
I always enjoyed entertaining and organizing big group outings, and to suddenly find ourselves in this sort of social vacuum is very difficult for me. After a lifetime of "instant friendships" found within the congregation, I've realized that I don't REALLY know how to make friends. I tried enrolling my son in a couple of preschool classes, hoping to meet some other moms in the area, and both of them were cancelled which was really disappointing. I've tried my hand at every hobby I could think of, but none of them aroused any sort of passion in me.
This is the weekend we would have been attending our convention ... And while sitting through the convention itself was a drag, I almost miss the excitement of packing lunches, picking out new outfits, etc. At least it was something to DO.
My husband keeps telling me that once our son is a bit older and enrolled in soccer or some other sport, or when he starts going to school is when we'll meet a lot more young couples with kids that we can start friendships with. It's just hard to be positive when that is still a couple of years away.
I feel myself getting more and more depressed over this, and less and less motivated to make more of an effort. On top of everything else, we're also expecting our second child, and its a time when you need support more than ever.
I'm not quite sure what to do.