I don't think there are to many haters on here...plus if there are, they are easy to see by their comments. I guess I'm still considered in, but haven't reported any service time for 3 months...It's hard because I was just going to go inactive so I could still talk to my family and now my aunt found out I haven't been in service for 3 months and right away I was accused of apostacy and she has forbidden me from talking to my grandmother and now it's spreading among my JW friends and they won't even talk to me now so I can tell them it's not true. I don't hate them, I actually feel bad for them that they are so afraid of me because "I'm an evil apostate" when it's not even true. I have my doubts and I have learned things about the JW history, but I've kept those things to myself and I haven't been spreading it around.
I understand your doubts and all I can say is read your bible, and also get a few other translations too just to compare, and keep your eyes open and if something goes against what things should be, goes against the bible, question it. The "truth" about anything will stand up against the lies, but the lies will crumble away. There are things the JW's teach that are lies and they will crumble away because the BIBLE will always stand against the lies.
I hope and pray you can find your way and most important ask Jehovah for guidence and to see what HIS truth is.