Hello all at JWN! I have been a lurker here the last few months and have been going through the process of researching both sides of the story of Jehovahs witnesses. I was raised in the Borg, got married and now have a young child.. My wife is very much dedicated to the organization and will justify anything the "slave" does putting it off on the borgs imperfection. She could tell something was bothering me and she really pushed me to tell her what, so I told her about the UN scandal, and showed her the documents, showed the flip flops on organ transplants, Mexico vs Malawi situation, and tried telling her flip flops blow the whole light getting brighter theory out of the water because light shouldnt flicker or reverse course, its like being tossed about with no direction. She took it pretty well all in all but just said that everyone will be held accountable in the end and she just wants to do whatever she has to do to make it out of this system and Jehovahs servants made mistakes in the past.. However I cannot give up and realize that this was not an overnight process for me and realize this will take time. She says I need to study more to build faith, but the funny part is I have been studying more now than ever in my life! That is studying the facts, and what the bible really has to say. Her version of study really means indoctrination and mind control reinforcement.. She really studys the publications alot at work which is why I believe she will be harder than some to get across to. When I tried to discuss further doubts, she threatened to call my Dad who is an elder so he can "help" me. So after that I have been laying low so to speak. I am unfortunately currently a MS and looking for a way out other than DAing. My parents are both hardcore dubs, dont want to lose them but dont know how much more hypocricy I can live with, plus I DO NOT want my kid growing up in this controlling damaging group like I did. I love my wife very much and she really does her best to be a great wife and mother so this wont be pleasant.. Just wish I could have researched this b4 I got married, that would make my exit much, much more simple. The meetings I can barely tolerate but service is the worst, so I work alone when I can and just stand at the door and keep walking. How can I try to convince people of something I know to be FALSE! The definition of hypocricy. I was most shocked when I was on jwfacts and found how there is NO BIBLICAL evidence to support a paradise earth and no mention of a great crowd of other sheep, all manipulated and made up! To think I spent my life looking forward to living on earth and it being all falRse hope, well Im glad I found out TTATT at a young age.
Thank you all for your posts here and to Paul Grundy over at jwfacts.com you have been instrumental in opening my mind and seeing past WT propaganda.
As for my name BU2B it is short for Brought up to Believe which is a new rush song I enjoy, give it a listen if you have time, im sure most of us here can relate to it. Anyways look forward to posting here now and getting to know you all!