Wait on Jehovah and he will clear this up in due time...
I have family members who've waited on this guy their whole lives and he's done Diddly Squat for them. This organization is emotionally and psychologically abusive to its members. If you can never do enough and if you're never good enough no wonder people are depressed.
I asked 2 JW women who came to my door years ago "Why, if my Mom had such a wonderful hope in Jehovah, was she so miserable?"
You should have seen the looks on their faces.