Was Your Life As A Jehovah's Witness HORRIBLE???

by minimus 43 Replies latest jw friends

  • watersprout
    watersprout

    Designs i'm soo sorry

    My life was awful as a witness... I hated every moment of my life... Attempted suicide many times but was always stopped by my Lord... Even now when I think about my life as a child through to my twenties I still cry.... I'm still having repressed memories come up, pretty horrific they are to.

    But I still have a family (hubby, sprog, parents, sister, nieces, nephews, aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents) who love me and all my ditsy, air headed ways... So i'm very lucky.

    Just wish my parents hadn't opened that door to those who belonged to that BASTARD religion. My life would have been soo different.... Sometimes I think about what my life could have been.... I would still have been the same airy fairy woman, just without all the traumatic shit.

    Peace

  • minimus
    minimus

    It's amazing how many that get out start feeling so much better! No more depression, no more alcohol or drug abuse, no phantom diseases and conditions!

  • wobble
    wobble

    Not really, I was born in so knew no different, but as I matured I made my own niche , Elders knew not to mess with me or they ended up holding the shit*y end of the stick, and I did what I wanted and did not do what did not please me.

    I had a wide circle of friends whom we socialised with, all Jw's, or their partners maybe UB's, I had the respect of the whole Circuit etc etc all my family were in, in the "other half" of our split Congo.

    I was in a very laid back congregation of really lovely people on the whole,a couple of exceptions but they gave me no problem.

    All of the above explains why I stayed in for 58 years.

    Of course after I left I realised the problems with the cult and the pressures they put upon you that you just don't register as a problem when you are in it, i.e Cognitive Dissonance etc and the mind control etc but on the whole my life as a JW was far from horrible.

  • wha happened?
    wha happened?

    I wouldn't say horrible, but I definately put up with a lot more than I should have. In any other social circle, people don't behave this badly. JW's seem to have poor people skills, and when they get cornered on it, the "imperfection" is used as an excuse. Had I realized sooner that they were no closer to God than anyone else, I would have left them and their odd behavior a long time ago

  • cantleave
    cantleave

    my childhood was horrible, because my mother psychotic. I think it would been awful even if she wasn't a Witness.

  • minimus
    minimus

    Cantleave, I think many of our problems may have been there whether we ever were Witnesses or not.

  • isojourn
    isojourn

    My life as a JW was insane. I love my mother, but she was so out of touch with reality.

    She would check my locker at school weekly. (rumors started at school that I was being searched for drugs.) Check my bedroom and backpack daily. I had to dig a hole to hide my precious CD’s as a teenager/young adult.

    One time she found one though, and burned all of my things, I mean all. Then as I got older, I was allowed to take some selected college courses, in which my dad would monitor the times I would go in and out of each class. (literally watching me from his car.)

    At my first job my boss was an elder, he took my personal journal and followed me. I found him and an elder following me during lunch ( I wasn’t even doing anything wrong at the time) I didn’t want to be alive anymore and It only went downhill from there.

    Needless to say, that was a few years ago. I do NOT miss that life. Things are so much better now. Once I realized what the actual truth was.

  • wha happened?
    wha happened?

    ok that was just creepy isojourn

  • isojourn
    isojourn

    Yes, min and cantleave. Both of you are right. Some problems would have been there regardless. But the Borg certainly did not help.

    All in all, my mother had issues to beging with. She was a perfect candidate for the Borg and the other way around. A very symbiotic relationship.

  • isojourn
    isojourn

    I know. It made me really paranoid after I left. I think I'm over it now.

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