Hi looloo, besides reading the book that leavingwt suggested, you should also read Steve Hassan's books (e.g., "Combatting Cult Mind Control") and Raymond Franz's books (e.g. "Crisis of Conscience"). If you cannot get to the library or bookstore soon, you can watch videos of Raymond Franz on youtube: www.youtube.com/watch?v=6c6I0fjiYNU&feature=related .
What types of activities do you like to do? Do you like to go to parks, the beaches, play tennis, go bicycle riding, etc? Doing anything fun is a lot better than going on FS and cleaning the KH.
Peace be with you and everyone, who you love,