I'm so sorry to hear how your family is treating you
Thank you for that! It's been a while since I left, but as I try to explain to people who don't understand JW's... it's not something you ever just "get over."
It's truly a difficult thing to explain. I don't even just mean the pain, I mean the pure craziness and complexity of it all.
JW's and the control they have over your brain and life is like a torture. It's a mind control in most cases from birth, where you don't know you have other options available to you. If you don't or can't live up to the unrealistic standards that supposedly "Jehovah" expects from you, then you are wicked. You go day by day living in guilt, even if you are obeying as many rules as you can, because no matter what God can read your heart and they beat it into you that none of us are good. It's basically up to Jehovah if he will save you or not. You literally live in fear, you just survive day in, day out, waiting for armageddon. You don't live, you survive, it's fight or flight mode every day.
Most days I don't know how I escaped. The thing is, even if you do, we will always be "Ex-JW's" like survivors of the holocaust.
The difference between them and us is, I know right now today, there are people including my brother, and family living in that "holocaust."
They are being mind controlled and told things that are ludicrous. My family has disowned me because of the mind control. Most of us have had to get out of that mess by giving up every single person who ever supposedly "loved" us. And now every day that we live, we have to continue to make that decision.
We have to decide we are worth more than that. It's not easy having no family. It's not easy when others have tons and take them for granted. It's not easy because when we are down, we don't have family or friends that we grew up with to rely on. Friends are great, but when they HAVE a family, the relationship will never mean the same thing to them as it does to us. That is our reality, that is what the organization has done and is doing to peole every single day.
I've made a great life for myself with someone who loves me very much in the past 6 years since I've left. I'm an incredibly happy person, with people that do love me. But I will always continue to tell my story. Even if just one person makes it out, I will have done my job. :)